February 27, 2011 § Leave a comment
It’s been an odd up and down sort of week and I feel as if I have been surfing the energy waves … so far I don’t seem to have fallen in.
Still. Having motivation issues. Seems I want to immerse myself in art and movies and things being read to me …
So. How’s by you?
February 14, 2011 § Leave a comment
was listening to mamagena [sistergoddess.com] and what she had to say about making a list of desires and then wallowing in the joy of them and deeply feeling them as a means to manifestation … i’m with her on this. it’s possible … but it turns out i am blocked behind my “very righteous [wall of] disappointment” …
simple question, it was … ‘what do you desire?’
stopped me SO short that i have an existential whiplash. and … ouch!
so i listened to her free download again. i stopped it. went back. listened again. nodded sagely. i mused. i found annoyances [i’m not sure of all the seemingly gimmicky ‘sister goddess’ stuff … and how much i ‘rock’!!!! stuff. feels over the top for me and ignites the bullshit candle in my head … but this may have something to do with my very righteous disappointment :( not happy about that.]
i get it. i see where the great wall was built [i didn’t build it, exactly, but i helped it along by passively allowing it. by accepting every brick of thought pattern and word that bound the thoughts together]
the wall is merely a spell. one that can be broken. a wall as any other that can be dismantled and built into something else. so, what shall i build? not a fortress. i’ve already achieved that and that’s still a block. a bridge? perhaps … an open terrace for dancing? getting warmer …
i know, i’ll build a cobbled path on my mountaintop to a partially bordered garden and in this garden is lush greens and fragrant whites; pristine blues and delicate lacy pinks; hardy stalks and whispering trees for shade and shelter and rest … and it will always be ever expanding to make room for the medicinals and the fragrances … and the peace … a surround sound of breezes and bird song and the hush of running water in the distance … the fertile paradise spot of my desires …
ah. yes. SO much better.
my gift to myself today is staying in bed and writing in an unbridled manner about my desires and hugging pleasure to me like the sacred thing it is. two cats. quilts. sun. risotto and peaches … nag champa incense and a candle and me. just me.
please check out mamagena. she is a force of positive nature. not exactly my cup of tea [… too much sugar in it for me and i don’t take sugar in my tea … ;] but there is always something in everything that we can take away and use and i CERTAINLY love the way she owns ‘it’ … may we all grow to own the ‘it’ in ourselves :)
February 9, 2011 § Leave a comment
So, I woke up at 4:30 this morning and tossed for a bit before it was made very clear to me that I was being [and have been all week] called to sit up and write. The Universe makes me write. That’s how it speaks to me. Kinda like a spiritually cosmic psycho-wow-drama … and since I have realised this [only in the past couple of months] it has become quite insistent and clear.
I have said I am going rogue. But I haven’t. I have said I want to be authentic. But I’m not. I’ve said that my biggest asset is Me. And yet I am still not trusting it.
So I am making a huge leap of faith and my Self and the Universe/Source/Divine Wow and seeing what is there.
Time for an experiment, and you – my dear readers – are my rats.
Now. I don’t know how you feel about rats but I love them. I have owned – no, shared- great times with 3 of them. Rats are endearing and expressive, loving and intelligent. They are humorous. They love a good joke – on themselves as much as on you ;] They laugh [they do] and they have individual personalities. Most of all, they give. Be very pleased you are one of my rats. I will LOVE you.
But then … I love you anyway.
This is linked to my Reiki Flower web site [reikiflower.com] where my services are listed and offered. I am not only an Intuitive, but a Reiki Master/Mentor and Flower Essence Maven … um, therapist ;) I have mean empathic skills almost to a fault which is part of MY learning process and practice. I meditate and practice reiki/reiju magic everyday. Yoga? Sometimes … then … and again ;) I wink. A lot. My writing style is quirky at best. I use punctuation the way I breath and grammar has never been a forte. Get used to it. It’s charming :) Oh … and I have a lot to say.
I have so much I want to know about you! I will ask questions and post inspirations for you to expand my world with. To expand your world with. I will write honestly about my process and my days and … they aren’t always peachy. I revel in everything, even the Dark Nights of The Soul. I sometimes wallow in my own mental bullcrap, but I eventually get back up again and I’ll tell you honestly how that happened.
Wanna know more? Well, stay tuned … read Gayle Reveals Her Self and … stay tuned! I am a wizard of changes and I want to jump into this life. Naked. A life deeply lived and loved. Right here. Right Now. In. This. Moment. It’s simple really … and it’s all about Love. In truth … That’s all it’s ever about.