April 20, 2011 § 5 Comments
I do not know why I am finding this such a difficult wish … when the first thing to pop into my mind was ‘My bank account.’ … then it was ‘my desires’ but these seemingly remain nebulous to me. I am skirting the issue of My Desires … a simple thing to name them, I thought [I have been advised ;] and just the idea that I find it difficult to truly release and name my Desires directs discomfort into my belly.
Not a sweet thing.
But I am processing mightily this week … working with Grape essence from Spirit-In-Nature and this is all about Love and Devotion [no wonder I have tabs open to “Love divine: studies in bhakti …” and another on “Learned helplessness … ” ] I am finding this a difficult path and that just ‘bothers’ me even more … but the essence nudges the door open like a cat desiring of a belly rub. [nice that I leave my ‘doors’ unlocked now, isn’t it?] The ME that wants to submit and flop on the rug turning belly up with a twist and purr [“pet me!”] … but this cat still feels vulnerability and a lack of divine trust … so there is no rolling over.
Not just yet.
Well then, to my wish … I wish to tend my blossoming divine heart. It is Spring after all, and the seeds to this blooming were planted last fall … tending the fragile roots that are only just extending down into the earth … tending the first two gentle green leaves as they reach up toward the light … wishing to tend this blossoming divine heart.
April 18, 2011 § Leave a comment
My heart is breaking as it always does in the beginning of an awakening. It’s a mournful feeling. Deep sadness. Grieving. A heavy sorrow come to the edges of my psyche.
The thing is, I know that there is peace when an awakening is close and inevitable so the matter of Being through the grief is where my practice lies.
To top this off I have Fullmoonitis and all portents I have looked to point toward meetings with guides and angels and messages once and for all. All too true.
Do you moon bathe?
as the Moon full and ripe slips from behind the clouds, so to
do i slip from behind the veils
the soft remnants slipping from my skin
in puddles fallen i bathe
i bathe in this sorrow rising from the vessel clean
Meditations ask you to feel yourself rooted to the earth. To envision your feet becoming part of the the ground and sinking yourself deeper and more connected to The Mother. In a drumming trance last week while laying on my Shaman Mountain, I saw how my entire body became part of the Earth. My hair, fingers, tailbone all connecting and fine filaments reaching from every pore where my back met the Mother and winding deeply into the ground and then spreading out, not just deeper, but farther and farther outward until the earth was held gently within but uncaged … Everything Is Connected … Everything.
Muse. Stay in Touch. Namaste *bows* Gayle
April 16, 2011 § Leave a comment
I will learn – quite possibly here and now … TODAY! – to leave things and people and CATS alone to sort things out for themselves.
It turns out I know a lot, but they know better and I must become more attentive to listening to those rhythms and energies. it is an important step in a healer. To leave one’s Ego to the side and put your heart in the place of the other’s energetic rhythms instead of what your Ego believes to be the correct path.
Everyone has their own path up the mountain and down again … we have our own spaces of tranquility and need … it is not my place as a Healing Artist to impose my belief system on anyone or anything else.
Especially with cats.
I created a formula to assist all the cats with the transition of a new home [ Tiff ] and a new member’s arrival [ Eddie, Roxy and Kismet ]. They all seem to be handling it better than I am. Me. Feeling anxious that they all get along. Me. Imposing my anxiety on them … on Tiff most assuredly … instead of simply trusting their innate wisdom and guidance to only be assisted by my ministerings of reiki and flower essences.
And then! … Ah. Ha. … Very often [very often] the feelings of others [animals/pets and people alike] are greatly influenced by our own energies. Hence Tiff’s anxiety and fear is being felt by me and I am then not only tapped into it, but magnifying it.
And to top that off, I know that I feel and ‘take on’ other’s energies all too deeply and easily. So, talk about the viscous circle! All the more reason and evidence how treating the owner of a pet is always the most prudent and beneficial route to take.
Point made and taken, universe. Selah *bows* … I am taking the formula as well. *smile*
Stay in Touch! Namaste, Gayle
April 13, 2011 § 14 Comments
The wish prompt from Jamie Ridler today is “What do you wish to read?”
I honestly did not think of books … reading comes to me in emotions and thru the fog and the rain and the wind. Reading comes from the formation of the clouds and the look in my beloveds eyes. Reading comes from the pages and stream of my friends and lovelies online … So, taking all this into account [and looking at the actual stack of books beside me!] Here is what I truly wish to read …
I wish to read an email from my friend who’s daughter has GBS that things are better than they feel at them moment. That the healing has worked :)
I wish to read an amazed text from Barry saying we have won the lottery :)
I wish to read the solution to my riddles in my others readings :)
I wish to read the 8 figure number for cash on the signed check for deposit and deposit ticket to our bank account :)
until then … I wish to read the’ I Love You’ smiles in the eyes and words of all those I encounter :)
so now … what do you wish to read?
stay in touch! namaste, Gayle