What Do You Wish To Tend?
April 20, 2011 § 5 Comments
I do not know why I am finding this such a difficult wish … when the first thing to pop into my mind was ‘My bank account.’ … then it was ‘my desires’ but these seemingly remain nebulous to me. I am skirting the issue of My Desires … a simple thing to name them, I thought [I have been advised ;] and just the idea that I find it difficult to truly release and name my Desires directs discomfort into my belly.
Not a sweet thing.
But I am processing mightily this week … working with Grape essence from Spirit-In-Nature and this is all about Love and Devotion [no wonder I have tabs open to “Love divine: studies in bhakti …” and another on “Learned helplessness … ” ] I am finding this a difficult path and that just ‘bothers’ me even more … but the essence nudges the door open like a cat desiring of a belly rub. [nice that I leave my ‘doors’ unlocked now, isn’t it?] The ME that wants to submit and flop on the rug turning belly up with a twist and purr [“pet me!”] … but this cat still feels vulnerability and a lack of divine trust … so there is no rolling over.
Not just yet.
Well then, to my wish … I wish to tend my blossoming divine heart. It is Spring after all, and the seeds to this blooming were planted last fall … tending the fragile roots that are only just extending down into the earth … tending the first two gentle green leaves as they reach up toward the light … wishing to tend this blossoming divine heart.