April 11, 2012 § 1 Comment
i can feel that i am on the verge of beating this … it’s like being on a see-saw but i am getting closer to that point of balance.
i am very tired lately, feel weak legged, and my stomach is cramping. but instead of resting i have been pushing and pushing to “be well” … however, my body is forcing me to sit and assimilate. literally. to see where i’ve come from … see what’s ahead
just relax into it all.
so i got up and took a very hot shower.
washed with indian sandalwood soap and oiled my body afterwards with jasmine and patchouli.
feet too. soft socks layered [i have these sport shorty socks that have a extra tightness around the arch. i love them when i feel unbalanced. they are a comfort.]
i am dressed in soft polar fleece and have the comfortable weight of blankets surrounding me on my makeshift chaise [a chair pulled close to the sofa].
mr. bear is on the chair watching me with a smile and i have coffee and then apple cider vinegar and honey water to sip until i feel like i can eat.
it’s going to be a sleep-wake-sleep-wake sort of day and that’s ok.
mood wise i actually feel ok.
and this is a good thing.